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Why are there so many...Songs about rainbows

music: Kermit the Frog - The Rainbow Connection
mood: crestfallen

Why are there so many
Songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?

my day started off rather badly today when i rolled out of bed ten minutes before class and scrambled there only to find that everyone else was still on their way to class. had my usual tuesday-thursday breakfast with christian, but my french toast was icky. rushed back to coleman so i could shower before running off to my korean war seminar, only to find myself five minutes late, and doomed to get back my first graded paper in that class. i'm absolutely freaking out about school now because i'm slowly falling behind more each day. languages are time-consuming, but it's discouraging that i must sacrifice classes for other classes. in other words, i cant seem to get the hang of the jack-of-all-trades thing down with my courses. oy vey....

in the afternoon, the storm hit us rather hard. the winds hurled through our campus like a hurricane, but luckily, i was inside my dorm watching the pouring rain from behind the window. went to dinner with my floormates and as we walked out of the dining hall, i looked up and saw a rainbow against the pink sky. i think i'm slowly beginning to see the beauty of maine.

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me
jessica on 09.29.05 @ 07:08 PM GMT [link]

HELLO PANDAS!

music: Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
mood: filled with glee!

omg, checked my mail today and omg, omg, GUESS WHAT I GOT?! A PACKAGE! from EVAN! and guess what the box was filled with....

HELLO PANDAS AND POCKY! chocolate of course. ;D and oh, Orbit Orange, which I generously gave one to ian ;P

but yey! wee! thanks evan!
jessica on 09.29.05 @ 02:15 AM GMT [link]

workload piling up

music: ATB - Long Way Home
mood: scatterbrained

ATB has returned to my playlist. musical nostalgia.

talking to evan on the phone right now. he's very concerned about my sleeping habits and all this other stuff. i dont like worrying other people, especially him. ;\ but i'm worried about myself too. it's slowly kicking in that things really arent that dandy in terms of my expectations for myself and what i've been able to accomplish. i dont know, maybe i'm just bad at managing my time?

rainy monday again. hurricanes are crazy this year. and er....it's getting cold.
jessica on 09.27.05 @ 01:42 AM GMT [link]

loveparade afterparty

music: The Academy Is - Classifieds
mood: on the verge of being depressed, aiyah.

omg, i cant believe i'm missing possibly the biggest rave in san francisco in the next 5 years. herman informed me of this tonight and omg, now i just want to bang my head into a wall. i'm so fucking pissed! why the fuck am i in maine? ARGH! and can i just say, baxter parties really are disappointing??

actually, in general, the parties here havent been terribly impressive. maybe it's impressive when you're too fucking tipsy to notice the shitty reality, lol. but yeh, this is definitely depressing. maybe nyu wouldve been better?? iono, i just REALLY hope this is some fucking phase i'm going through because as much as i love bowdoin, the social scene is SO depressing. maybe i'm just not drunk enough to enjoy it.
jessica on 09.25.05 @ 12:01 AM GMT [link]

new roommate

music: nothing
mood: not good

i'm such a bitch, lol. we're getting a third roommate tomorrow, and i should be more welcoming, but i'm not because i've liked how things are with norah and me and i dont want change. i guess this is just another result of my moodiness from the past couple of days. i hope everything works out, especially since there's a shitload of rearranging furniture and things are gonna get a bit more crammed and did i mention norah and i are both claustrophobic?!?!
jessica on 09.23.05 @ 10:20 PM GMT [link]

just catching up

music: Madonna - What it feels like for a girl (Paul Oakenfold rmx)
mood: iffy

i cant believe it's taking me more than an hour to finish my greek homework. then again, i tend to always do this....you know, wait for the weekend to catch up with my work. it's not like i'm actually behind....it's more like languages require extra time. i dont mind, nor do i find those classes dull. i'm just bad with time management i suppose. i dont know why i'm taking three languages really, because frankly, as much as i want to be a lawyer, i'm not sure if i really want to master two ancient (not to mention strictly literary) languages when i could be learning conversational romance languages like french or italian. it really does amaze me still when i'm doing my latin translations and i realize how much i know already. i can read most of what i'm translating and understand the grammar, although translating it into good English is another story, haha. greek is slowly sticking to my head...SLOWLY. it's just hard to get used to the alphabet i guess. chinese is going fairly well. the characters stay in my head, so good for me! i can write basic sentences that really mean nothing! XD i hope i catch up to the 200 level chinese course. i just have to memorize a shitload of characters...something like 700-900 by the end of this semester.

anyhow, i dont know why i've been feeling off lately. i just feel incredibly aloof. maybe it's just temporary stress, anxiety, or who knows, but i just feel off. i guess it's hitting me that this is the real deal. i met with professor morgan the other day in his awesome office in hubbard tower (omg, a spiral staircase leads to his office and keeps going up to the top...it's so CLASSIC) to discuss the Columbia Law program as an option for me, and holy crap, i'm just....overwhelmed. i mean, i just....i dont know. it sounds like the perfect thing for me: i know what i want to do, and it's only beneficial to me. but the commitment....and the fact that i might want more and never get it is holding me back. then again, what more could i ask for? i dont want to go into the details of the program, but for those of you who are in the LAC's on the east coast, like williams, amherst, etc. you probably know what i'm talking about. it's not like it's so easy to get accepted, but holy crap, can you imagine what that'd be like? can i even imagine?

i know that's semesters ahead and i've just barely started my life here at bowdoin, but i'm just stuck in a rut i guess. everything seems to be going really well for me so far. i thank God everyday that he directed me to this school. i mean, what more can i really ask for? just a crazy streak of luck??! huge dorm room, wonderful floormates, fantastic classes, and bonuses like my job, music....so why am i feeling dissatisfied?

i just hope that this feeling is as evanescent as the other times. for now, i think i'll look forward to my weekend.
jessica on 09.22.05 @ 10:11 PM GMT [link]

eighties danceoff! sort of.

music: Eddie Money - Take Me Home Tonight
mood: ok

eighties party last night at quinby! well...sort of. bowdoin students tend to be gung-ho about theme parties, so there was a lot of spandex and bright colors. some people looked awesome, others looked scary, lol. (too much tight spandex!) a lot of the guys tried to pull that ducky look (pretty in pink!) and lots of sunglasses in the dark, haha. it was a ton of fun dancing to eighties music! better than helmrich and howell...no offense, haha. i'm just a bit weary of "hip-hop." afterwards, went to supersnack and christine and i hung out at east hall chatting with savannah. we came back to coleman around 3 and to my surprise, everyone was in my dorm watching donnie darko eating pizza with their beers. (surprise, as in from outside, i thought everyone was asleep cuz no lights were on.) anyhow, stayed up chatting until like 5 because limewire was working! and yes, bowdoin does firewall, gawddamn. last night was definitely awesome, especially since i got to watch the graduate again in the theatre at sills.

today, a sunday, got up around 11 and ian was in our room randomly....lol. went to brunch, accidentally ditched ian but he took too long on his omelette -_-, so i went off to rehearsal at gibson, and i think i played better! went to HL to do my hw...even though i didnt accomplish as much as i wanted. at least i did all my language homework! dinner wasnt that great cuz i missed the grilled cheese and tomato at thorne for moulton, but at least i had ice cream with lots of sprinkles. came back, watched the telly with my floormates, then went to meet up with jasmine at the picnic tables behind moulton. she invited a bunch of us chinese bowdoin students to celebrate the autumn festival. the full moon was beautiful, though the clouds were a bit ominous. nevertheless, it was fantastic, just chatting with people and eating mooncake. can you believe that? jasmine brought mooncake all the way here from guangzhou. i'm so lucky to have been able to celebrate. i truly am blessed.
jessica on 09.19.05 @ 12:39 AM GMT [link]

rainy days

music: Coldplay - A Message
mood: tired, but fine.

another week of class over with. at least this week went by quicker than last week. last week just wouldnt end! even so, at least we had better weather last week. hurricane ophelia is spreading out to us and we're stuck in drizzly WARM rain for this weekend. it's so gross, the nuisance of rainy weather while it's 70ºF. you're always wet and sticky from the humidity. >.< but nevertheless, i love the pitter patter of the raindrops outside my dorm. there's just something incredibly soothing about it. and it's perfect weather for Simon and Garfunkel.

i've basically been catching up and falling behind in all of my classes. it's an endless cycle, just like how it was at lowell. you spend time for one class, you lose time for another. sacrifices must be made. and as of right now, i think i'm sacrificing chinese and marine bio for my other 3 academic classes. >.< oh btw, did i mention that i'm officially enrolled in seven classes this semester? apparently, chamber music AND my private viola lessons count as two separate half-credit courses. so as my facebook shows, here is my official list:

* Biology 64. Coastal Marine Life
* Chinese 101. Elementary Chinese
* Classics 101. Elementary Greek
* Classics 203. Intermediate Latin for Reading
* Government and Legal Studies 111. Korean War Seminar
* Music 279. Chamber Music
* Music 285. Individual Studies - Viola

i love how i can get away with crap here at bowdoin. ah, the beauty of having a liberal arts education. ;D and if i keep it at this rate, i can get junior-standing by the end of this school year. effin awesome! XD

super snack thursday! FINALLY thorne opened its doors for super snack. i ate soooo much last night, including nachos (healthy red and blue chips!), honeydew, pineapple, cinnamon toast crunch and golden grahams, and less not forget the extra glass of milk and 2 cups of coffee (5 in one day!). definitely got a bit hyper and with my high energy, had my nightly talk with evan on the phone and possibly freaked him out (again!). but omg, we discovered the coolest comic! F-Minus! CHECK IT OUT!

oh yeh, i grabbed a snickers piece from the library yesterday afternoon after working for two hours and i must say, this is the COOLEST candy wrapper ever!





it glows in the dark and gives you the answer too! wowee! XD

jessica on 09.16.05 @ 11:48 AM GMT [link]

first full week of college

music: Maroon 5 - Sunday Mornings
mood:

oh how appropriate, sunday morning and i'm listening to Maroon 5.

so i survived my first full week of college! talk about a shitload of things that happened/i had to do. started work on thursday at the Hawthorne-Longfellow Library. i work thurs-fri-sat early afternoons (1-3pm usually) at the circulation desk, so come visit me! or not. because if you have a book question for class, i most likely wont be able to help you, lol. but if you want to talk about literature, COME! XD because other than that, i'm totally useless customer service.

the foam party on friday was totally a letdown. more like totally gross. i thought they'd be spewing foam out at us, but no, it was a foam PIT. totally disgusting because by the end of the night, you really dont know what shit was in that foam, lol. we had to sign waivers to get into the pit too, so that was a sign to stay away. in the end, my friends and i went to Smith to play pool....a pathetic game of pool, but nevertheless we finished it. ;D (dont laugh at me evan. i will get better! i will!) last night, after watching motorcycle diaries with christine, we decided to drop by the ladd house toga party, "epicuria," and again, letdown. i walked by there to drop by East first, but heard the music and stayed away, lol. plus, frat party-toga scene really isnt my thing. ended up at the pub for the club (oo! rhyme!) which was cool, but awkward(?) lol, evan knows ;P stayed up until 3 talking to my hunny and supposedly i zoned out b/c i was so tired? well, at least i didnt fall asleep on him this time. :rollseyes:

the workload is definitely coming. i mean, there arent a lot of assignments due, but there IS a lot of studying to do. i spent yesterday afternoon in the library, (5 hours?) because i worked for 2 hours after brunch and spent 3 hours on Greek. i didnt even get to the actual assignment because i spent my time learning the language and conjugating crap. i dont think i was very productive yesterday because i look at my list today, and holy crap, i still have research to do for my korean war seminar, chinese listening hw, Latin translations, greek ASSIGNMENT, and studying for my marine bio quiz. but i have a rehearsal later tonight, so i have to practice a bit for that too. crap³. i guess i should stop the slackin and get crackin....
jessica on 09.11.05 @ 11:12 AM GMT [link]

blessed, or just very lucky

music: nothing. silence is sweet.
mood: sleepy

oh wow. i must say that i'm truly blessed right now. either that, or i'm extremely lucky.

recap. Monday, first "official" hectic day of classes. it wasnt so bad because latin and marine bio (coastal marine life) were "intro" classes that day, but i just KNOW this semester is going to be insane. mondays and wednesdays, i have chinese and greek in the morning, then a 2.5 hour break, then latin and marine bio from 1-4. i'm not terribly worried about sitting through those classes because i actually REALLY like all the courses i'm taking, but i do need to develop a good study discipline. so far, i've just been running around to meetings/auditions and whatnot during my free hours. not much studying so far. d'oh! >.<

i've started to go to the gym! XD (even though it's just nightly cardio workouts on the bike and treadmill. but hey, it's a start!) whoops, fragment.

Tuesday. what a happy tuesday it was! had chinese and korean war seminar in the morning, and i can tell that i'm gonna love the seminar. military history is one of my weird interests in history, hehe. for some reason, i've always enjoyed learning about the politics of war...which is pretty much my professor's (who also happens to be my premajor academic advisor) specialty. talk about luck! ;D after a quick lunch from the Polar Express (the line at Moulton was too long), i went for my audition for the music scholarship thinger, the free private music lessons. and guess what? of the 3 spots for freshmen, i was selected for one of them! XD i'm sooooooo excited! omg, i cant believe i actually got it! so now i can continue to study the viola at bowdoin, with free private music lessons, AND i'm playing in a quintet that gives me half credit for the semester! this is just so friggin awesome!

afterwards, went to my interview with the supervisor of the hawthorne-longfellow library circulation desk and score! signed up for my shifts (neat 2 hour shifts thurs, fri, sat afternoon) and yey! now i have an on-campus job! the pay isnt as high as sf of course, but it's pretty damn good. i'm pretty psyched about this semester. went to the student activities fair at smith union tonight and checked my mail along the way. lo and behold, i got a letter! from joyce! XD on spottie dottie stationery...lol. oh man, snail mail me people! i love getting mail! especially letters.

anyhow, at the student activities fair, i think might have signed up for too many things, lol. more like i've already loaded myself with a ton of stuff (overload of classes, music, work-study), but cant help it if i'm ambitious! (or simply insane....) signed up for BQSA (GSA), Bowdoin College Democrats, Asian Student Association (ASA), Debate (which isnt CX, unfortunately, but Parli), some volunteers for lawyers thing, and i think something else, but i'm not quite sure....oh well, guess i'll be getting emails to find out! XD and plus, it's not like i've really committed to anything...other than the big 3 (academics, music, work-study).

the year is really starting! i'm totally psyched!

and googletalk is awesome. now i can "call" people for free over the internet! thanks evan! muah! now i can talk to you more often!


jessica on 09.07.05 @ 12:36 AM GMT [link]

unpredictable rain

music: Frankie Lymon & the Teenagers - Little Bitty Pretty One
mood: just fine.

feeling the stress of school coming....or rather, feeling the workload slowly coming. it's only the first weekend and i'm already procrastinating, haha. but i wont! i swear i wont! i mean, you cant really blame me for trying to cling onto the last remnants of summer.

my weekend was filled with beautiful weather, but rather uneventful afternoons and evenings. totally didnt do much this weekend, yet somehow i made it through a good portion of my checklist. now isnt that nifty. ;D hopefully i'll catch up with my bits of homework....

chinese, greek, latin, and coastal marine studies tomorrow. oh boy, i can't wait.

btw, notice the new layout? eh? monotone? yes, it is. that's because school has started again and we all know what that means....

jessica on 09.04.05 @ 11:51 PM GMT [link]

fortune cookie

music: NOTHING
mood: tired

Your Fortune Is

Underwear is not the best thing on earth - but next to it.

the title really has nothing to do with this entry.

my classes have been all right so far, i'm gonna have one intense semester especially on mondays and wednesdays, and mac party last night was all right, just the typical college party with mediocre (well, cant blame them if that's the best they could acquire) beer, pong, terrible-DJing (but decent music), and last but not least, cops. yup, pretty much the average, but at least it was a fun night out with my floormates and friends. ;D
jessica on 09.03.05 @ 11:15 AM GMT [link]

lobster bake

music: Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
mood: anxious

orientation is over! FINALLY. sheesh. all those "mandatory" activities were about to kill me. but then again, this also means that summer has truly come to an end. the leaves are slowly falling already too, and autumn is in the air. except these days, it's more like the leftovers of the hurricane. i really dont like this 72 degree stormy weather. it's so ridiculously humid, i dont think we can even fully shut our bedroom door for fear of being locked inside.

so after Matriculation, we had this presentation thing that wasnt terribly thrilling. lunch, then went off to buy my books from Moore, which took an hour because the line went out the basement and out the door towards Moulton Union. but the important thing is that i bought all of my books for less than $300 too! something like $260, but i'm actually gonna get $30 back because of the school's policy that if i find something cheaper from a major commercial company, they'd match the price. sweet stuff. i love buying books, so that was fun for me. XD i also dropped by the bookstore at Smith Union to get some supplies. afterwards, went to Convocation, which i totally slept through cuz i was sooooo tired (i still am!). went to the lobster bake at Moulton and omg, that was a good meal. they gave each of us a whole lobster (there was steak, chicken, and eggplant available too) and we sat at our tables to crack them open. here are a couple of memorable table "settings":

the bib was totally unnoticed until most of us had finished half the lobster. hilarious because the table mat was the instruction manual for cracking open the lobster. but here's the REALLY hilarious part:

"Once trapped and cooked, the lobster is served as a delicacy. Only when cooked and served on the tables of the world's finest restaurants will this shy beast drop its guard and, with a little encouragement, finally 'come out of its shell.'"

hilarious, isnt it?! XD but yes, after a BIG meal, went to the preO slideshow, which was a disappointment because they didnt show any of our group's pix, which were submitted too! aiyah.
jessica on 09.01.05 @ 12:40 AM GMT [link]